I appreciate the fact that you have taken a part of yourself to give to others. However, throwing the "sin" thing into your diatribe leaves me more angry than assisted. Have you ever heard the one about walking a mile in one's shoes? Sure you've dealt with trauma and the insanity of crime. But you DO NOT have MY shoes on! You don't have MY intestinal fortitude. MY mind. My hope or hopelessness.
All my life I've heard about God's love for all mankind. Is this a lie? Does this God change his/her mind when I die and become vengeful, a killer? I'll never ever believe that God wants newborns to die or women to be raped or people to suffer in ANY form. And after my death be it by my hand or some other circumstance, My God will still love me, accept me and especially not judge me.
You can spew forth that translated, overrated, misquoted, and misrepresented rag you call a bible if you want. Have you ever told someone something and they told another and so on, by the time it got back to you the story was totally different wasn't it? Guess what has happened with the bible? However, if you send me a "love gift" I'll tell you what God really wants for you! RIGHT!
You really want to help me? Just listen, don't judge me, give me your time not what's on your mind, tell me you'll be there for me then do it, be my friend not my Dad. Maybe I'll make it through another day with that kind of help. Otherwise, if you can't then show me how to DO IT with the least amount of mess as possible.
My response is in Green:
Thanks for writing me, I think. I must admit I am not sure why you wrote me. From your message I take it you do not want to hear the truth, you would like to hear what makes you feel good. Well you must know that is not what I will do. I will tell you the truth because I believe that is not only the right thing to do, but the only thing that will help you. So if you really don't want to hear the truth, you should probably stop reading now, because I won't lie to you even if you want me to.
No I have not walked a mile in your shoes so to speak, yet I have walked in some very much like yours. You said I should not talk about sin, but those are the very shoes we all walk in. We were all born into sin. (Romans 5:12 NIV) Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned-- We have all sinned and we will all have to answer for those sins one day. It does not matter what your life has been like, nor does it matter what my life has been like, the fact remains that we have all sinned and will have to answer for it. You may not like that but it is the truth.
No I don't have your mind or hope or hopelessness, but that does not mean I can't understand it. I have been at the point of contemplating suicide in my past. I felt hopeless and in utter despair. I have never been dead either, but that does not mean I can't understand that it is final.
You said that you have been told all your life that God loves all mankind and you asked if that was a lie. No it is not, but don't take that to mean that He does not demand punishment for our sins. He does not change either, He has always demanded punishment for sin. Let me ask you a question; which being shows more love? The first being loves everyone and therefore over looks whatever they do. Being number two loves everyone but because this being cannot stand sin He pays the penalty for those He loves? That is what God did. He cannot stand sin, and His holy nature demands death to anyone who sins. Every one has sinned and therefore is sentenced to death. Yet God loves us. That is why He did what we have trouble even comprehending, He sent His only Son to die for our sins. To pay the price for our freedom. That is love.
God does not want newborns to die, or people to suffer, or people to be raped. I am sure your next question is if that is true then why doesn't He stop it, right? Well He could and He will stop this in the future. But for Him to stop it now would mean that He would have to take your free will away from you. We are sinful beings and we most often choose to do wrong. So for God to stop us He would have to take our ability away to make those choices. Is that really what you want? Do you want to be a zombie or a robot serving a God you don't know just because He makes you?
You know God loves you enough to give you what you want. If you don't want to love Him, if you don't want to be around any being who would hold you accountable for your actions, then He will give you exactly what you want. It is separation from Him also known as Hell. He won't send you there, only you can do that by choosing to.
You seem to have a low opinion of the Bible, but have you ever read it? Have you ever tried to prove it is wrong? Go ahead the Bible can defend itself. Prove to yourself that it is just a rag. Of course to do so, you will have to explain how a book which has been translated, overrated, misquoted, and misrepresented could have changed the world as the Bible has. How is it that there are so many copies of a book which is so misquoted and misrepresented? How can it be that it can be proved how old most of the writings in the Bible are, yet they are coming true today? You know when the predictions about Israel were made, about them coming back as a nation, it made no sense because they were still a nation. Then when they were scattered and were no longer a nation those same predictions made no sense because it has never happened before that a race of people has been scattered throughout the world and then kept their identity intact for over 1,900 years and then become a nation again. Yet in 1947 that very thing happened. Not bad for a rag!
I understand your revulsion with the people who are always asking for money in exchange for the message. Jesus hated those kinds of people too, so don't judge Him by them. By the way, did you find anywhere on my site where I asked for money? I am just a poor former Marine and ex-cop who felt that God wanted him to post his testimony and help others. I support my site out of my own pocket. I am not a tax exempt organization, I am one person. It won't cost you any money to hear about the free gift of God's love and of salvation from me.
God does love you. If He did not love you He would not have sent His Son to die for you. Now it is up to you. Do you want His love and His forgiveness or do you want to reject Him and spend your eternity away from Him? He won't force you, it is your free choice. Denying that there is a choice is the same as making the choice to reject. If I tell you the stove is hot and you deny it and put your hand on it, won't you still get burned if I was right?
Yes I would like to help you, but if it means lying to you, then no thanks find someone else. How can I say I care about you and then lie to you and tell you everything will be okay when in my heart I believe you will spend eternity in hell? You may not want to agree with me about what I believe, but there is no way you can seriously think a person who saw a car coming at you at full speed and told you don't worry there isn't a car coming just so you feel good, cared anything about you. That is what you are asking me to do. Go ahead and lie to you so you feel better, it does not matter what is true just lie to me. Well I won't.
God loves you and He wants to have a personal relationship with you, but if you refuse He will hold you accountable for everything you have done in this life. You will be judged and punished and the punishment for all sin is spiritual separation from God in hell. Period, final, forever... (Romans 3:23 NIV) for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God
Jesus said: (John 5:24 NIV) "I tell you the truth, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life.
What have you got to lose? God says; you sinned, but I have a way that you can be forgiven, all you have to do is take it. Is your life so great that you don't need God? I doubt it or you would not have come to my suicide page. God wants to help you but first you have to admit who and what you are and who and what He is. You are a sinner under a death sentence for committing sin. He is a loving God who wants to have a relationship with you and wants to forgive you, but you have to ask.
Hate me if you like just because I care enough to be honest with you, but don't reject God because you hate me. Check it out for yourself. Please don't fall for the lie that because God loves you He does not care about your spiritual condition. Any don't fall for the lie that there is no God. You can see Him all around you. I believe in your heart you know that you will live in some state forever. God put eternity in our hearts. When we are honest we don't believe we will die and just quit existing, it goes against everything in us. Think about it.
I will pray for you. I hope you will at least give God a chance in your life.
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