HI, I want to kill myself. But all my friends r telling me not to. (y is that)? and I dont know how to tell my Mom and dad. I fell like s*** and I dont know y. i tried to take pills but it did not work right. IM 14 and my life sucks.. so the only thing that i could think of doing to help it was trying to kill my self. are there any thing i could do outer then kill myself? i would relay like to know. then i tried to cut my rises but my girl friend stopped me and slapped me.. and said i was a dum ass.the only reason she found out is b/c she read this letter I put in her mailbox... i love her a lot but I dont fell like living, I wish I could die right now. Like God hitting me with a thing and it will kill me. Is that bad? i mad some choses in my life that were dum like:(i do drugs, and had sex, i put someone in the hospital, falling school, etc.) and i wish i habit.. i got to go bye
My response is in Green:
Well thanks for writing me. I will tell you up front that suicide is not the answer, it only super glues the pain you have now onto your back for eternity. After suicide there is no hope at all, at least now you can look forward and see that life should get better.
I can tell you part of the reason you feel like you do. It is because you were created to have a relationship with God and you will always feel empty and lonely until you get that relationship with Him. I know because I have been there too.
Since I was about 7 years old I wanted to be a Police Officer. I joined the Marine Corps partly because I thought it would help me get into law enforcement. It did help me become a cop. I worked hard, even working my days off, I got promoted and even got to be the shift commander, but you know what? I was miserable. I was empty and lonely. I had done everything I ever wanted to do, but it was not enough, it did not make me happy. I too wanted to die. Do you realize that the suicide rate for cops is very high? We work with death everyday and after a while you begin to think that maybe that is a way out of the pain, but it is a lie.
The Bible says this about death: (Hebrews 9:27 NIV) Just as man is destined to die once, and after that to face judgment... We will all be judged after we die. Whatever condition we die in is the condition we will be judged in. We are all born into this world as sinners, and God says: (Ezekiel 18:4 NIV) For every living soul belongs to me, the father as well as the son--both alike belong to me. The soul who sins is the one who will die.
God is holy and He hates sin. As you can see we have a problem; we are sinners and God says anyone who sins will die. That is the beauty of what God did for us; (Romans 5:8 NIV) But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
That is the good news, that God paid our death sentence for us by sending Jesus to die for our sins. Now all we have to do is believe in Him and ask Him to forgive us. That is how you get a relationship with God, through Jesus Christ. That is what is missing from your life. This is what I was talking about when I said until you get a relationship with God nothing will get better. God loves you and wants to have a relationship with you, but He will not force it, you have to do it because you want to.
Do you have a Bible? If so you should read it. Start in John, it is the third book of the New Testament. It will tell you who Jesus is and explain what you need. Also feel free to write me anytime. I also think you should come right out and tell your parents how you feel, but you must realize that they are going to freak so be prepared.
You said you have done a lot of stupid things, well join the club. Just remember that God will forgive you if you are sorry and you ask Him to. He loves you.
E-Mail Ralph (Whose comments are in green)
What kind of crap is this? Is this propaganda? It looks to me like you doctored the entire page. Do you think that the average public is that stupid? You decided to spell numorous words wrong as to cinvince the reader that you were infact a fourteen year old boy who was contemplating suicide. Very thoughtful of you to talk about the "quote" job in which you also suffered the contemplations of suicide when you realized that you have everything but god. All i can say about that is that it does not take god to make the man, and if you think that it does then you have deeper problems far beyond the help of any papal. And in closing all i can say if this writing from said fourteen year old boy is genuine, and in my opinion it is not, is that its people like yourself that that force the need and the support of religon on people are the people that force the hand of young children to feel the need of suicide as a way out of various situations including the experimentation of sex and drugs, which inlife is very normal when in a experimental phase. It is when it takes on an addiction that it becomes a problem. To take away the fredom of choice to make these decisions on ones own is to take away the essence of being human. To error is human.
A religous man
Wow, your argument might have been better if you did not do the same things yourself. Notice how you did not capitalize i in several places and how you misspelled convince (cinvince), and many more. I am not trying to make fun of you, but your idea that I misspelled things to make it look like someone else wrote the message to me is sad. I could post the person's e-mail address and name when I post something but I won't. I could care less what you think. However, you are sadly mistaken on several points, not the least of which is that God is the answer.
I take it you don't think I was really a police officer or ever had thought of suicide either. Well that just goes to show how ignorant you are of most everything you wrote. If you care to check, my commission as a Deputy Sheriff is in the public record of the Beaufort County Clerk of Court August 27, 1977. I might be mistaken about the 27th but it was in August. As for my thoughts of suicide, only I know for sure, but I have no reason to lie.
You claim you are a religious man, well why not get rid of your religion and find God?
We will all have to answer to God someday for the wrong things we have done. These are called sins and we have all done some of them. God is holy and demands death for anyone who sins. (Ezekiel 18:4 NIV) For every living soul belongs to me, the father as well as the son--both alike belong to me. The soul who sins is the one who will die.
That is the bad news, we are all under a death sentence from a Holy God, who can't stand sin and we have all sinned. Now for the good news. God loves us and does not want us to go to hell to be punished for our sins. Because He is Holy He can't just forgive and forget our sins, His Holy nature demands that some one pays for those sins. (John 3:16 NIV) "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
Here is more good news: (Romans 5:8 NIV) But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
So what does this mean to us? It means that if we die without getting right with God we will go to hell for eternity and suffer in punishment for our sins. However, if we will believe that Jesus is the Son of God and that He died for our sins, and if we confess our sins (admit them to God) and ask Him to forgive us He will. And if we believe that after He died God the Father raised Him back to life then we will be saved and if we die we will go to be with God. (Romans 10:9 NIV) That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
PS: Would you mind if I posted your name and e-mail address with this message, since people like you won't ever believe I really get junk like this?