The only thing stopping me is whether I will go to heaven or not.

hello i've always thought about my death and killing myself, the main thing stoping me was if i'd go to heaven or not, i did ask God into my heart a long time ago and i don't think that if sometime down the line you lose faith in God and kill yourself he will send you to hell but i'm not sure, this is my problem and why i think it would just be better to get rid of myself, i live in an apt with my brother who has had a good job for 2 and a half years, he's been paying all the bills and rent, i've had jobs but i've never been able to keep them, do to not being able to get along with people plus all the jobs i had i walked away without giving notice before hand which is hurting my chances of getting other job,i live in a small town and don't have a car, recently my brother got engaged and they are moving into a new house very soon, where does that put me? well either i move in with them and keep being a burden or i kill myself and by doing so help him out. we are very close and he knows all about my death wish so i know he won't feel guilty or anything else for that matter. i don't have any other options and i have two weeks to decide which way i'm going to choose, i don't think my brother actually believes i will go though with it though he couldn't be more wrong.

My response is in Green:

Speaking of not being more wrong... You are dead wrong about nothing keeping your from heaven. Let me ask you a question, do you think that God has changed? Do you think that if God says something in His word we should believe it or just ignore it because it says something we don't like? Take a look at what God has said:

(1 Corinthians 3:16-17 NIV) Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you? 17 If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God's temple is sacred, and you are that temple.

(Ezekiel 18:24 NIV) "But if a righteous man turns from his righteousness and commits sin and does the same detestable things the wicked man does, will he live? None of the righteous things he has done will be remembered. Because of the unfaithfulness he is guilty of and because of the sins he has committed, he will die."

So you need to ask yourself, has God changed? No He has not changed, if you deliberately kill yourself you are telling God that you don't care about Him or what He wants. You are saying that you want to be god of your own life. You better think that through very carefully.

If suicide is not an option, then what? Well you need to deal with your problems. The first problem you have is with God. You said you had asked God into your heart a long time ago. That is good but it is not all that matters. It matters how you are living now. Don't let people tell you that all you have to do is ask God into your heart and then you can go do whatever you want, that is a lie!! God makes it clear that is a lie: (Hebrews 10:26-27 NIV) {26} If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, {27} but only a fearful expectation of judgment and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God.

Until you get right with God and start serving Him, you will not be able to deal with your other problems. You mentioned in your message to me that you don't get along with other people, that was another way that I knew you were out of relationship with God. (1 John 4:7-8 NIV) {7} Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. {8} Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

Once you get back into a relationship with God, then you can start getting alone with people and start getting your life back on track. Will it be easy? Probably not, you have made it bad for yourself, but not impossible. It is time to grow up and start acting like an adult. Death would bring you nothing but eternal suffering and separation from God. Being selfish and self-centered is what got you into this mess, so start thinking differently.

Start all over. Ask God to forgive you of your sins and ask Jesus Christ to come into your heart and take over control of your life. There is no there answer.



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